Thoughts on Disappointment
There is so much beauty in disappointment. I think of Hannah in the Old Testament pretty often - a woman who by all our understanding was doted upon (she did have a pretty messed up marital situation though) and yet still didn’t have the greatest longing of her heart. When Eli saw her praying and lamenting, her outward expression of her inward turmoil led him to believe that she was drunk. And you know what? That very notion feels so empowering. It feels empowering because Hannah was honest. She did not withhold her true feelings about her situation. She laid them all out - loudly - publicly - consistently. When we truthfully lean into disappointment, I think we are able to become more honest with what it is that we want. It is ok to want what you don’t have. You can be grateful, fortunate, fed, not “go through what they’re going through” and still want something different. You can recover from addiction, see a friend turn their life around, struggle with self worth and want more. Y
